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July 22nd, 2010 (04:38 pm)
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current mood: blank

i've learned that it doesn't matter if  i'm 300 pounds or 100 pounds: i'll never be happy. so i might as well be 100 pounds.

katiegk04 [userpic]

Writer's Block: What if calories didn't count?

September 22nd, 2009 (08:09 pm)

If a magic genie told you your calories wouldn't count for 24 hours, would it change what and how much you ate that day?
no. i don't care if it was god telling me i can't trust anyone but myself plus flat out wouldn't want to. like a gutt feeling or an instinct....

katiegk04 [userpic]

9/14

September 14th, 2009 (05:54 pm)

weight: 135.2 SHIT!!!
-3 zucchini = 93 calories (minus some because i purged)
-1 apple = 65 calories

=158 so far. everyone's having pie now. i think i'll have some and purge; eh i hope i don't gain!!!!!

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back on track

August 16th, 2009 (09:43 pm)

i'm tired and i'm fat. sadly i'm afraid the therapists were getting through to me. i'm fatter than ever before, school starts in ten days and hell i still hate myself, or my body to be exact. i will get back to the thin me. tomorrow i'm going for my first liquid fast scince ...two months ago? i don't know when i let myself go but i do know that it is not going to happen again.

katiegk04 [userpic]

don't care

June 27th, 2009 (10:31 pm)

tonight i'm taking 5 pink pills ...i don't care if it will hurt me in the long run. i will spend all night purging. i will starve myself. i will do anything to be thin. beautiful. two words that are a stranger to me.
why? because i hate my body and i can't stand myself. because i don't care if i could die, it's a risk i'm willing to take.

katiegk04 [userpic]

this is for me

June 9th, 2009 (11:45 pm)
confused

current mood: confused

i'm done living my life for other people. i'm done pretending and believeing they have my best interest in mind. i'm starting over with a clean slate and i'm going to start doing thing for me, that benefit me.
1. i'm starting public school again. i'm dropping german and taking art classes so i can get into an art coollege in two years.
2. i think i might break things off with my boyfriend. srry but no matter how amazing you are any hormone driven teenage boy is going to try to take advantage of me. frankly i've been there b4 and i won't put myself in that position again.
3. i'm getting a job. i'm getting a car. the day after i graduate i'm getting the hell otta here.
4. ana and mia keep me sane. i need them. i will get down to 115 by the time school starts.
5. i don't know how but i will love myself. i hate being depressed 24/7 and i hate hating myself. it needs to stop.
6. get temps
7. lay out:) it makes me happy and i need a tan
8. finish reading list

katiegk04 [userpic]

<3

May 27th, 2009 (12:47 pm)
cheerful

current mood: cheerful

i spent the last three days with my boyfriend, so i ate a lot. but now i'm back home and back on track, today and tomorrow i'll liquid fast. my parents and therapist are giving me two months to "get myself together" w/out interfearing. haha yess!!! two months to loose as much weight as possible without anyone to bother me about it.
i'm at about 133 and want to get down to 113 ...but by the end of this week 129.

katiegk04 [userpic]

liquid fast day 3

May 21st, 2009 (06:34 pm)
current mood: accomplished

130.8

 

BMI 20.5


so i've lost 4 pounds already and am going to keep this up as long as i can! i'm seeing my bf on  saturday (at the lake so we'll be swimming) so hopefully i can get down to 128 by then!!!! =]

katiegk04 [userpic]

alone

May 16th, 2009 (07:11 am)


ok so after going through my parents e-mail i found out that they told all of my teachers about my ed. i am home schooled now but they told my public school teachers. great. on top of that they think i have some sort of mental illness ...wow even better. there is no one i can trust. everything i do and say gets written down and reviewed by shrinks. i have a doc's appt on monday but thank god no labs so it will be easy to trick them. also, i have no chioce but to tell my therapist that i'm eating and doing better ...hopefully a few weeks of that and i won't have to go anymore. i've got myself and that's gonna have to be enough for now.

katiegk04 [userpic]

melt down

May 13th, 2009 (12:53 am)
full

current mood: :(

ahhhhh fml fml fml fml. what did i just do? whole mini pizza and ice cream. going to purge it all. then starting juice/smoothie fast tomorrow. i will look hot in my bikini ....in front of my bf. god i will exercise tomorrow. so i think i'm going to go continue this melt down in my room:(.

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