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May 16th, 2009 (07:11 am)


ok so after going through my parents e-mail i found out that they told all of my teachers about my ed. i am home schooled now but they told my public school teachers. great. on top of that they think i have some sort of mental illness ...wow even better. there is no one i can trust. everything i do and say gets written down and reviewed by shrinks. i have a doc's appt on monday but thank god no labs so it will be easy to trick them. also, i have no chioce but to tell my therapist that i'm eating and doing better ...hopefully a few weeks of that and i won't have to go anymore. i've got myself and that's gonna have to be enough for now.

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Posted by: formyed (formyed)
Posted at: May 16th, 2009 06:42 pm (UTC)

What is your current relationship w/ your public school teachers? Mine new when I was in high school - there was no way not to know - and it was actually really helpful to me.

You actually do have a choice to tell your therapist something other than that you're eating and doing better. Honestly, I've worked with a lot of e.d. professionals, and the ones at the center are some of the best trained I've ever come across. They know the tricks - and that those tricks can include saying we're doing better when we're not. Even if they believe you, they also know that eating better does not equal immediate recovery. I don't mean to be obnoxious, I'm just encouraging you to be honest.

How much does your therapist tell your parents?? Isn't she only required to tell them if you are planning immediate harm to yourself and/or others? I'm not sure how it works with a minor . . .

Posted by: katiegk04 (katiegk04)
Posted at: May 16th, 2009 11:56 pm (UTC)

yea she doesn't tell them much, but i read some of our e-mails and it sounds like if i go any further down the wrong path they're gonna ambush me into recovery ...also if they think i'm getting better mentally and gaining weight then i shouldn't have to go any more after a few months. i just wanna get otta there. i like support group but in therapy its like they're trying to trick you into recovery which gets on my nervs.

Posted by: katiegk04 (katiegk04)
Posted at: May 16th, 2009 11:57 pm (UTC)

oh yea and i'm going back to public school next year ...and you could say that gossip spreads fast. what a great way to start the new school year ...i wanted to transfer but its out of the question right now

Posted by: formyed (formyed)
Posted at: May 17th, 2009 11:11 am (UTC)

High school is so hard. I don't envy you! Maybe you could intervene and talk to your teachers, etc., before you get there.

Posted by: formyed (formyed)
Posted at: May 17th, 2009 11:09 am (UTC)

I thought they were going to leave you alone for a couple of months?? What program would they put you in?

Have you talked to your therapist about how you feel regarding pushing/tricking you into recovery? How do you feel that she does that?

I can't wait until the end of this quarter when I can start going to group again!!

Posted by: katiegk04 (katiegk04)
Posted at: May 17th, 2009 03:20 pm (UTC)

iop or something else, not quite sure. i'm gonna talk to my therapist the next time i see her to hopefully clear a couple things up.

Posted by: formyed (formyed)
Posted at: May 17th, 2009 08:00 pm (UTC)

Can you confront them about it at all? Your parents, that is?

Definitely talk to your therapist. What is really important tome about my therapist is that she doesn't push me to give things up, etc. She provides a nice balance to Sonja that way. And, once, when i did feel like she was pressuring me, I talked to her about it and it was SO helpful.

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