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August 16th, 2009 (09:43 pm)

i'm tired and i'm fat. sadly i'm afraid the therapists were getting through to me. i'm fatter than ever before, school starts in ten days and hell i still hate myself, or my body to be exact. i will get back to the thin me. tomorrow i'm going for my first liquid fast scince ...two months ago? i don't know when i let myself go but i do know that it is not going to happen again.

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Posted by: formyed (formyed)
Posted at: August 17th, 2009 12:15 pm (UTC)

I've been wondering about you!! What's been going on? Have you been seeing Sonja? B/c, if so, I can't imagine you're fat b/c I've seen the people on her meal plans and they're *definitely* not fat. ;-)

I've missed you at group! And, though you may not want to hear this, I'm glad the therapists have gotten through to you, and I hope that you can allow yourself to let them in as you're ready b/c you deserve they're help.

Posted by: electroplate (electroplate)
Posted at: August 19th, 2009 10:27 am (UTC)

my bet is that even when you were restricting/fasting the most you didn't like your self/body then either and if you go back to your old habits the relief will only be temporary. it feels great when you start but it starts to tear you apart pretty quickly. if you keep working with people who care about you and support you, you will keep getting stronger without having to destroy yourself

take care, stay strong

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